My youngest sister..

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Dah lame sy tak menulis kat blog ni.. My pixie hollow has dusted I guess.. 😻

Would like to tells u a story of my siblings. Ummi gave birth to 10 caliphs. 

1.sharifah Fatimah Akmal

2. Sharifah Najibah

3.Sharifah Khadijah (it's me) 

4.Syed Mohd Saggaf

5. Sharifah Azimah

6.Arwah Syed Mohd imam( 11 Nov 1994-30 may 2002)

7.Syed Mohd Alim

8.Syed Mohammad Ahmad

9.Sharifah Nurul 'Ain

10. Syed Mohamad Aman

We were raised up by ummi n bah except adik ain. To tell u the truth.. Its not easy. We are not from a wealthy family. Allah has been so generous to us. Kami berjimat, hidup sederhana, namun begitu xpernah sekali pon smpai terpaksa mngikat perut kebuluran. Ummi n bah kerja dgn Sgt kuat utk menyara kami. Adik beradik ramai. Mcm2 ragam. Kami main, kami gaduh2, kami makan sama2, kami nanges sama2, kami tidur sama2. Life has never been uneventful with us. 🤗🤪

 Today's focus in on my youngest sister

When ummi got pregnant for the 9th time, Milak (kakak bah) has arranged for the baby to be adopted by her nephew. We had never failed to regret the decision. It has been arrange, soon after delivery, the family will take away my sister. There's a black and white document signed between 2 parties.Little that I remember. The only thing that I remember most, ummi suffers a lot after that. She had postpartum depression for sometime. Its never easy. Poor ummi. Not later after that, Allah grant ummi another pregnancy, adik Aman. However, Ain has always been miss. I went to Mrsm after that. All I know, ummi has never failed to wish to go to KL to see adik ain. 

Time flies so fast. Day by day. Month by month and years by years. Ain grows up so fast. At 4months old and at 2years old they brought ain back home for visit. And that's the last. Earlier on, I used to accompany ummi to go see adik ain since I studied at HUKM cheras, just nearby and they were staying in cheras at that time. Sometimes there are too many reasons for not to go to visit her. They are going hometown, they are going for holiday, ain was schooling, ain has extra class and the list goes on. I don't blame them for being worried with our visit. We are not planning to take her away from them. She's our family. We want her to know. But her family was not yet ready for that. Bah has been so frustrated with their action. Bah has stopped seeing ain after that. However ummi has never give up. Never fail to request. I'm sorry ummi. For not been able to fulfilled your request sometimes. Ain's mama has promised multiple times to bring ain back for Raya, however the promises has never been fulfilled. 

8 Oct 2020 

Bah got admitted for shortness of breath (acute exacerbation of chronic obstructive airway disease Gold D). His condition was quite bad. Even a minimal movement cause him to be breathless. We were very worried. We texted Ain's Mama to bring ain back. She promised. Everybody was hoping sky high. So do ummi. They promised to depart from KL on Sunday. And as expected. The promise was once again broken. Its a really heartbreaking news especially for kak, bah n ummi. We even already cooked for them. I never expect anything from them earlier on. However the frustration they give to my family was heart-aching. We search everywhere to contact ain before but to no avail.

That day 11oct 2020. Me and Amad was taking care of bah in the ward that day. We were looking to all platforms of socmed. Alhamdulillah, at last Allah has shown us a way. Allah help us to revealed Ain's phone number. (which we had never got before-was told ain has no handphone). We were so excited. Its time to reveal you. 

I excitedly create a message to be sent to u adik. But Bah said, give them another last chance. So I save the message as a draft till today.

'Salam adik Ain.... Kak Khadijah ni. Maaf kak ijah ganggu.. Tp rasenye smpai da mase ain tahu pasal keluarga kandung ain.. Lame Sgt da kami tlg simpan kn rahsia bg pihak 'parents' ain. Dah 16 tahun umi ngn bah tunggu ain balik Kampung.. Setiap tahun kami berdoa ain jd balik jumpe umi n bah. Byk kali kak Linda janji nk bawak balik ain. Bah x brape sehat skang.. Kak ijah risau kalo ain xsempat jumpe ayah kandung ain..We might or might not be important to u. Just to let u know that u are important to us and  we care about u. Maaf sangat2 kalau msg kak ijah ni buat ain terkejut, but at this moment I really wish u to come back to us..'

Today 17 october

Alim gave me a good news, adik Ain knows already. Alhamduliah. Allah buka hati adik ain utk terima berita ni dgn tenang. Syukur ya Allah. Kami semua menunggu kepulanganmu adik. Balik sebagai family. Namun Tidak pernah sekali terniat dlm hati kami utk menjauhkn kamu Dr ibu bapa angkat kamu. Ketahuilah, mama mu itu pernah menyusukan kamu dan kamu adalah anak susuan beliau. She is also your mother. We accepted the fact that you have a family of your life. Take care of them and love them dearly. We really thank them for taking good care of u.

There's a lot more story to share with you about our family. We love u adik ain.